I know what you are going through. I haven't had a day go by without thinking of pops.
I have my fathers obituary on the roof of my truck. He is watching over me and I can see him when I look up. Kinda goofy I know but it makes me feel good.
The hardest thing (for me) was thinking of what he went through at the end. It was heart wrenching. He kept us up in spirits and to know that now is the best.
I try not to think of those days since that was only a few in his glorious life he gave to us and mom. Think of the little things he did for you and the sacrifices he gave to make you a better person and a better life for your family. You are here sharing which speaks alot for you and his guidances. You are what he taught. Be that person he was and what he wanted to be.
You are still here with family, yours and here. I am sure he left many good people that also need you. Feed off each other to get through this.
I will pray for you and your family since he is already with on the good side now.
Gone. Too much editing. Baby about it, yes. I would like to have real discussions. If I want to have things not reported/discussed\deleted I would watch main stream media. This was one of my alternatives. Later all.